Dog Days Are Over

Make a Memory

                                                That is what life is all about... isn't it?

All the things You nver knew

Nice song, but crappy movie haha =)

What would you do?

There are times when you start thinking about a matter and the more you think about it, the more the matter matters or the worse the problem becomes and you simply can't get it out of your mind, so you end up propped up in front of the screen, twenty-four hours on the internet, hoping to find some answers online, hoping that they are the ones you are looking for. That was what happened to me, I was worried about my test after much concern from family and friends... and it really made me scared when I thought "what if" came true.

With the tension building up, it was hard to wait another second, so I called in to the clinic even though I was in United States, as if I was surprise, I was given the silent treatment at the start of the call, even when I told the lady on the line that I was overseas... and to make the matter worse, she told me rudely that the blood test was sent to an external lab which will take around a week to send the results back, right, as if i was suppose to know that. I called in as the nurse who took my blood test told me that it would be back in three to four days time. I can understand that not all the staff at the clinic are trained nurse but is it so hard to find some humanity nowadays, is it so hard to place your self in the shoes of someone who had to take a blood test after an abnormal urine test, the agony of not knowing what oneself is suffering from, a terminal illness, a devastating disease which could easily rocked the boat in her/his calm life. Is is so hard to understand the relief of people when they find out that there are nothing wrong with themselves...

As I stayed awake in San Francisco hotel, I couldn't help but made another search on the symptoms of kidney failure or damage, and the more I read through the pages, the more I am able to match up to the symptoms. I know it seems ridiculous but when you are worried and mentally unable to function soundly, everything seems to be a blur. The protein, the back ache, the waking up in the middle of the night, the increase in frequency... that is like a match of three out of five symptoms, seems like I am on the losing end eh?

Lying in bed in defeat, I thought to myself about the clear day I had in San Francisco, I wasn't in a "Let's have fun and enjoy my day here" mood but neither did I want to stay cooped up in the room. What would I do if I didn't have a chance to be here again? Have a bowl of piping hot clam chowder, crispy and hot calamari and some gigantic crabs! That would be a fabulous idea to take things off my mind... okay, I am trying to convince myself that it is a fabulous idea... at least I am trying.

Then I started thinking, if I was to die soon, there are things to be settled, things to be put in place. I need to draw up a will making sure all my hard-earned money doesn't go to the government! Haha. I need to make sure that my parents are well-looked after, of course, my dear shetland sheepdog too. Things to say to all my friends, there will be so much letters and cards, "words" that are kept in a tightly sealed jar, finally getting to know "freedom of speech" *giggles. Well, to think of it, I should have done all these much earlier not only when it is needed, hmmm, I shall place these on my "must-do"list.

Enjoy this song, pals! Especially you, Joann =)

I GOTTA FEELING

every time i am feeling restless, i play this song and let it replay it in my head, you won't believe but it works, it makes me climb out of my bed and out of my shell =)

衝動

我對你有愛的衝動。。。

但你的無動於衷。。。

會讓我的愛。。。

不見了

Sky of Love

With nothing much to do in Los Angeles and feeling a fever coming up, I decided to stay in and catch a movie on my laptop. After reading several synopsis of several movies, I decided to go with a Japanese movie titled - Koizora. At first, it was a little slow moving and I was starting to get bored, so I turned it off. But something was nagging at me, so I typed in the title name of the movie into the search bar and read the reviews, I was surprised by the raving reviews of the movie and decided to give it a second chance. Boy... was I glad that I did. As usual, being a crybaby, my tears were streaming non-stop.

Koizora also known as Sky of Love (恋空) is a love story between two teenagers - an innocent black-haired girl, Mika and a silver-haired punk, Hiro. It started out when Mika lost her cell phone and found it in the school library. The stranger who helped to retrieve her phone deleted all the phone numbers on her cell phone citing that if the these people are keen to find her, they would call her which I can't help but agree as I have the habit of clearing contacts stored in my phone too, keeping only those whom I know would call. 

Unconsciously, Mika and the stranger contacts one another without fail every day, Mika grew curious of the identity of the caller at the other end. And it was decided that they would meet at the school swimming pool before the start of the new term. Upon seeing Hiro, Mika was surprised and reluctant to accept the fact that this silver-haired punk was the gentle caller whom she spoke to every single day but Hiro seems to win her over time after time in his own way and it was inevitable that they became one. Hiro's ex-girlfriend, Saki, was unable to accept the way things were going hired thugs which led to the rape of Mika. Hiro was distraught at his inability to protect his love and sought revenge. As gossips spread like wild fire in school, Hiro stood by Mika and carried her through.

One day, Mika surprised Hiro with the news of her pregnancy in a cafe, Hiro ran off without a word leaving Mika all alone. Mika waited but eventually decided to leave, as she was about to walk out of the cafe, a panting but happy Hiro rushed in with a gift congratulating and asking her to keep the baby. Rings were bought, they decided it was time to meet the parents, Hiro's parents were easy to persuade but Mika's were reluctant to accept Hiro. Hiro decided to quit school and find work which led to the appearance of Saki again, Saki demanded the reason behind Hiro quitting school from Mika which resulted in Mika falling off the stairs. The consequences of the fall came  when Mika and Hiro were out on Christmas Eve, Mika doubled in pain and the baby was lost. Mika and Hiro decided that every Christmas Eve, they would visit the place where Hiro once planted the flowers intended for Mika, this place was to be the memory of their lost baby.

Out of the blue, Hiro decided to break up with Mika which left her puzzled, disappointed and hurt, promising herself never to fall in love again since separation would hurt so much. As time passes, Mika found love once again, a man who was gentle and loving, promising to always come back to her like the sea, unlike Hiro who was like the river, taking everything with him and always forward-moving. On the day of graduation, Mika went to the library, a place full of their memories and wrote on the chalkboard found inside:

"Were you ever happy?"

And her question was answered.

"I was once very happy."

But she had to say goodbye, she went to college and hoped that time will fade the memories and remembering it only once a year on Christmas Eve. On a new Christmas Eve, she found Hiro's friend coming in his stead and that was when she found out the Hiro had cancer, the reason behind him leaving her. Her boyfriend was reluctant to let her go but knew that her heart was never really his...

Mika found Hiro in the hospital and reunited, they were happy but it was not long-lasting as Hiro's condition deteriorated, Hiro cried as he wanted more time on earth, he still had so much to do. Hiro asked Mika what happens when a person dies, Mika believes that he/she goes to Heaven there after. Hiro tells Mika that he wants to be the sky so that he could watch over her all the time. Mika smiled and joked that he would be like a stalker. And there and then, she decided that whenever she looks at the sky, she would think of Hiro. On sunny days, it would mean that Hiro is smiling, on rainy days, Hiro is crying, during sunset, Hiro is embarrassed and when night comes, Hiro would be hugging her.

The day came when Mika went to collect the photos that Hiro asked her to develop when he went for his check-up. At the same moment, Hiro was facing death in the hospital, Hiro's sister informed Mika about the situation and she tried running as fast as her legs could carry her, but she fell and the photos covered the ground, she was in every single picture, Hiro had been taking her pictures all the time. She managed to talk to Hiro through a video call, begging him to be strong and to open his eyes; which he did and requested her to smile for him before he left peacefully but reluctantly.

Hiro left Mika a diary, a distraught Mika tried to kill herself by jumping over the bridge but was prevented by the sudden appearance of two white pigeons as she was about to climb over the bridge. The diary which dropped to the ground was flipped by the wind to a page showing a hand-drawn family portrait of three, as Mika picked up the diary and flipped through, every sentence started with her name, every detail was about her, Hiro watched over her till the very end, and now, he would be watching over her forever, from the sky...

Bride Wars & a Bucket of Tears

new york, i have been here for six days, and i watched bride wars twice, the show is running now as i type. bride wars is definitely a chick flick, it emphasize  on the friendship of two little girls. two little girls who share the same dream of having the perfect wedding of their lives. they grew up, as close as ever and as the big day arrives, their friendship crumbles to the strain of having their weddings booked on the same day at the same place. each went their separate ways, planned their weddings without each other, did all they could to jeopardize the other's plans but at the end of the day, they couldn't help missing one another, missing their friendship...

as i watched the show, i cried, always at the parts where they finally realized that they felt lonely without the other, the part where the song - dream is being played in the background and the part where they see each other in their wedding gowns through the mirrors. it reminds me of someone, someone i once cared for. it reminded me of the great times, times we laugh at one another, times we cried together and now, all these memories seem so far away, as if they were just a dream.

I See Yours... But Where's Mine?

Sakura Rock

I luuurve this song!! It's by the Japanese group - Cherry Blossom. Perks me up ANYTIME ANYWHERE!!

Today's MTVS

Love the song and the MV, was looking for an MV that was clear, found one that was quite clear but it has some wordings but nevertheless, enjoyable!

She deserve the award, we know that, don't we? =)

break me out

i love this song but can't find the original music video, but this one is not bad, done up by joni4me.

how.to.save.a.life

everybody needs a fence to lean on

M-V-

Something to lighten up the mood!

I Wish You Love

unconsciously, i have been humming this song for the whole day, it is one of my favorite songs, and i love the version found in the show - and i hate you so.

enjoy:

and my friend, karen chu, does a great version of this song too! i hope you guys can hear that from her one day... =)

Laughters

Slogging more than 12 hours later, I have finally arrived on the land that belongs to "Little Mermaid". On this land, the fame of the Little Mermaid is widely known and it is one of the most photographed statue in Copenhagen, the city of Denmark. Most of us got to know this statue through the fairy tale of The Little Mermaid, written by Hans Christian Anderson in 1837.

Every little girl who watched the Walt Disney movie will never forget Ariel, the beautiful mermaid with a lovely voice who sang "Part of your world". Though it may be embarrassing, but I am proud to reveal that I knew every word to that song. Of course, the red crab, Sebestian - "Under the sea, under the sea. Darling, its better down where its wetter. Take it from me..." Haha, I find myself singing to it while blogging. Well, if you haven't seen it, WATCH IT!

On the way to the Island hotel, I was chatting to Anand and Richard. We found out that we do have a common friend. Karen Chu! Dragon brother told me to say hi to you! We found out the story behind the scar on his forehead *giggles* I cannot help but miss you. It reminds me of the times that we used to make each other laughed and giggled till all those around us were annoyed. Let's do that again soon! *LOH*

Looking forward to your gig, Chu.

=)