Some Past Creations

Some pictures of food that I whipped up in the past, with much help from my mum, especially the washing part *giggles* And I have to thank my sis-in-law for taking the photos for the dishes, since I was too lazy to do so.

Hello GUYS

Finally, I reveal to some closer people in my life there I do keep a blog though it isn't one that is updated regularly, but I will try to do so in the future and maybe include some pictures too. Well, the blog was meant to be a personal diary at first, so there are things that I wrote, ahem.. maybe it was only meant for my eyes.. but well, read and forget yeah?

Anyway, welcome =)

Crab Cakkies

Out of nowhere, I decided to try my hand at making some crab cakes, maybe I was missing the mouth-watering+delicious+juicy +huge crab cake sandwich from Houston and believe me, that was the only thing I ate when I was there. And I packed it to go for my way to Moscow too!

Well, one may think what is so hard about making crab cakes? The ready-to-eat crab meat that one is able to buy from supermarket are total crap, smells and taste bad! So I had to obtain my crab meat by extracting it from the shell itself and it was no easy job, my friend... Four crabs took me almost two to three hours, but believing that it was going to be worth all the effort, I managed to finish that most daunting process of all.

Mixing the extracted crab meat with Worcestershire, tabasco, mayonnaise, egg, parsley, mixed seasoning and saltine crackers. The final product was achieved by shaping "the delicious mess" into small sized patties, around an inch thick. Coat with a layer of bread crumbs. Refrigerate it for half an hour and it will be ready for the pan.

I can't help feeling excited with the final taste and outcome. Butter was used to pan-fry the patties and when it was finally golden-brown. The patties looks great since it managed to keep its shapes. First bite into the crispy and golden crust, the juicy crab meat with the fresh aroma of parsley, it was heavenly.

There will definitely be a next.

Words that touches

Some words or phases seems to remain in one's memory, whether it is from a movie, a song or even a conversation. It remains because it touches you in some way, some where deep in you where you can feel something stir, just like a little wave~~

And this does it for me today:

Though my job involves restoring cultural properties,

sometimes I feel how they rust and decay slowly is also beautiful.

What I mean is that love for a cultural property isn't just restoration.

Watching it slowly disappear is also a kind of love.

It is not lovey dovey but it touches me in a special way, how the words can be played into human lives, how one can age yet still be beautiful in many other ways.

I will.. see nothing...

After a twenty hours flight, I am practically brain-dead. Nothing gets through that thick head of mine, the only thing I could think about was a bath and a bed. But what was to welcome me home was another bout of bloody shingles... this time it was my mum that contracted the pain-gruelling skin rash and what was worse, it was around her scalp, forehead and eye area. I knew it had to be bad but everyone seems nonchalant about it, as if it was a common flu. 

Worried, I went online to research more about the skin rash. To my horror, having shingles around the eye area also known as ophthalmic herpes could cause a loss of vision and moreover, my mum being in her fifties was more prone to contracting PHN, post-herpetic neuralgia which cause long-term pain involving years. Armed with that information, I was determined to drag my mum to see an eye specialist. But to my surprise, she was going to tag along to my brother's newly renovated flat, which has nothing short of bacteria and dust to flare up her infection. Great! She really wants to go blind. When I tried to explain the whole situation to her, she just shrugged. My dad started on his "I am so great and I had it before, it was no big deal" attitude with me , insisted how it would go away, just like the last time he had it on his calf. Hello... calf and eye... different areas and different situations. 

With the lack of energy to persuade and argue, I had to let her go. But I could not set myself to rest and kept worrying, the more I found out about implications of ophthalmic herpes, the more uneasy I was. At first, I thought that she was just going to visit and return to rest in a couple of hours but no! Hours passed, morning came, afternoon passed, evening arrived and night fell, finally, they decided to return. I could not help but felt pissed-off with the rest of the family members for allowing her to do as she wants, don't they know the complications if the rash was not well looked after... they carried on with the packings, my mum hovering in the midst of the dust, I couldn't take it anymore.

It seems that the tears that were well-kept for the whole day finally found their way past my eyes, and I broke down in my room. I was tired, angry, and disappointed. And I thought, if she doesn't care, why should I. I changed and walked out of that place, a place that I once called home, a place that I longed to return to after a long trip, a place that I could rest without fear, a place with warmth. I... could not grasp with the disappearance of my home, where do I belong...

 

Some Songs Tells Your Story

Life is Like A Boat

Nobody knows who I really am

I never felt this empty before

And if I ever need someone to come along

Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong

We are all rowing the boat of fate

The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape

But if we ever get lost on our way

The waves would guide you through another day

Tookude iki wo shiteru toumei ni nattamitai

Kurayami ni omoe takedo mekaku shisarete tadake

Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo made

Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am

Maybe they just don't give a damn

But if I ever need someone to come along

I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

Hito no kokoro wa utsuri yuku nudedashita kunaru

Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo tsureteku

And every time I see your face,

The oceans heave up to my heart

You make me wanna strain at the oars,

And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore

When will I... see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am

I never thought I'd feel this way towards you

And if you ever need someone to come along

I will follow you, and keep you strong

Tabi wa mada tzudzuiteku odayakana hi mo

Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de funr wo terashidasu

Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu

Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see you face,

The oceans heave up to my heart

You make me wanna strain at the oars,

And soon I can see the shore

Unmei no fune wo kogi

Nami wa tsungi kara tsungi e to

Watashitachi wo osou kedo

Sore mo suteki na tabi ne

Dore mo suteki na tabi ne

Rie Fu

Determination

A few days ago, I decided it was time to get a car. Well, the COE has gone down and I think a car will do me much much good, encouraging me to go out more often and it will be great being able to drive overseas too..

I was watching Grey's Anatomy and I think it is time for me to stop worrying about being right or wrong all the time! Being in the grey area may do me some good!

"Alone people dun like to hear about the together people, okay. Even if the alone people are alone by choice, it's sorta of mean."

"Don't spend your time wondering what you are, or who you like, or whether who is right or wrong for you, just let yourself be happy, before you find yourself alone..."