23 January 2010

my sister

let me proudly introduce my sister to ya all, please kindly shift your attention to the picture below:



see the cute girrrl with glasses above? that is my sis =)


i gotta know her since we were in primary school, i guess that was the only good thing that happened when i was being transferred from st. margaret's primary to pei chun primary... i remembered feeling unhappy and lost having to be taken away from the school i love, friendships and bonds were lost after the transfer, i would have told my mum that it was a big mistake that she made as i believed i would have done much better if i had stayed on... well, it's history and having to know joann made up for all the rest.


we sort of met up with each other after losing contact for more than 10 years, was it more than 10, joann? well, i am glad we did, i missed the times that we spent together when we still living right next to each other, just in different blocks.


i love hanging out with her, she is so down-to-earth, happy, kind and awfully fun to be with. you can't understand the pure joy and simplicity of being her friend unless you are lucky to be one! everything was in a mess last year but the one right thing i did was finding my way back to this sis of mine and to me, that is worth celebrating since it is hard to find a true friend who reciprocate in the same way at my age... most people that i meet now are all 'hi-bye' friends, so for a great sister like Joann - i keep her close to my heart... =)

22 January 2010

面包万岁!

puzzled by the use of chinese in my blog. well, there is a good reason behind that, haven't been speaking or writing in chinese for a long time, so it's a bit rusty now... so updating my blog in chinese is one of the best way to practice the language again.

well, i have been baking bread and nothing taste like home-made ones, fresh out of the oven... the warm aroma fills the whole house. nothing beats the taste of the warm bread in your mouth...

here are the ones i baked today and i have to say proudly that they are... delicious!



 

 

 

decisions... decisions... decisions

sometimes not making a decision... is actually making a decision. and i realize that by procrastinating, not applying for courses to upgrade myself, not actively look for a new job, i have unconsciously made a decision to stay in the job that i am in now. i didn't realize that until i heard that sentence today, i was wasting time, and my perfect excuse for that is that i am seriously thinking if the other job or course is really what i ant to do.

this is it... i have to settle down and really think about it, about what i want in life, what makes me happy and how i want to live my life. i know bombarding my head with all kinds of plans and decisions is not going to help but i am sure it is better than lying on the bed or lazing on the couch reading for the whole day. of course, reading is good but not when you have more important things to do and to decide on.

i see myself with a family and children, baking breads and cooking for my family but i have no idea how to get there. from the me now, single and in a job that brings me away for more than 20 days a month sometimes. this job has given me financial stability, freedom of time and it is practically stress free! so what am i unhappy about?

i dislike the way the management works, having off days during the weekdays are useless unless there are people who can accompany you and spend time with you, the most important factor thing of all - the job is too routine, not challenging and mind stimulating, i am gaining and learning nothing, having no satisfaction in life at the present moment.

i need to change... and i need to make some decisions!!!

21 January 2010

愛情的聲音,你聽見了嗎?




这个故事描写着一个身体健全的男生如何让一个听障女生听到他心里想说的话。。。


天阔送到游泳池的便当都是给听障队员的游泳队,他看见秧秧用手语和小朋对话,所以主动上前用手攀谈。这才知道秧秧是小朋的妹妹,天阔看着秧秧冲冲忙忙的离开,脸带着笑容,不禁对她产生了好感。


看到在体育场外面跌伤的秧秧,天阔毫不犹豫,骑着摩托车把她送到医院去。虽然骑着快速的摩托车,但是和天阔还不熟的秧秧不敢靠着他的背。离开前,天阔跟秧秧要了MSN帐号。


为了制造见面的机会,天阔便到体育场外买便当,每次都特别留一个给秧秧,也因此知道秧秧经济拮据,常常没钱吃饭。从那天起, 天阔便亲自下手制作爱心便当,相比之下,爱心便当的食料不但多而且更加丰富,不但如此,也不跟秧秧收取分。感动的秧秧把爱心便当的内容详细画下,并且标上不同的价钱,坚持待日后手头宽裕再一并偿还。


透过送便当的过程,天阔渐渐了解秧秧和小朋是如何在没有父母亲的环境下成长,秧秧对小朋的关怀备至和手足之情深深地打动了天阔的心。快乐的时光却不长久,他们因沟通上的误发生无声口角。与此同时,小朋因烟气而失去了参加听障奥运的资格,自责的秧秧决定远离天阔,不再和他连络。


抵挡不住对秧秧的思念,天阔用尽办法连络秧秧。但有心避开天阔的秧秧怎么会让他找到呢? 天阔为了逗秧秧开心,扮成一棵树,但却碰了一鼻子灰。刚被小朋气走的秧秧,用手语对天阔说了伤人的话:


“你有想过我们可能会水土不服吗?”
“不是每个人都懂得怎么爱护树木和水鸟的。”
“说不定有人就希望我消失,而你。。。绝种。”


同一晚,喝醉的小朋把心里所不能承受的压力都告诉了秧秧,她难过的不是她得不到金牌而是不能为秧秧得到金牌,辜负了秧秧。秧秧这才知道自己因为太爱惜姐姐而放弃了太多,换来的却是无形的压力。


秧秧知道自己对天阔有感觉,但害怕踏入一个聋人和一个听人的恋情。在游泳池思索的她,突然听到一位男声的声音,听到他和他自己的对话:


“秧秧,我想请你到我们家吃饭,好不好?”
“为怎么呢?”
“我想把你介绍给我爸爸妈妈认识。“
”为怎么呢?“
”因为我喜欢你,我想当你男朋友。“
”可是我听不到,他们不会接受我。“
”他们会看见的,而且你说过,看不见就会不安。”
“我向你保证,我会让你。。。和他们。。。看见我对你的爱。”


这番对白是天阔原本想对秧秧说的心里话,但望着刚转过头的秧秧,他用手语问:


“我请你到我家吃饭好不好?”


秧秧用手语问回:


“为怎么?”


天阔: “因为我想要介绍你给我父母认识。”


秧秧:“为怎么?”


天阔:“因为我想介绍你到我们便当店打工。”


秧秧:“可是我听不见,你父母会答应吗?”


天阔:“他们。。。会看见的。看见我对你的。。。看见你的认真与努力!”


就这样,他们两儿骑着摩托车。但这一次,秧秧安心的抱着天阔。乐翻天的天阔故意放慢速度,希望那一秒的幸福永远别结束。天阔的父母为了和秧秧沟通,拿了事先预备好的笔记本,一篇一篇翻转和读着。最后一篇是问:


“所以你愿意嫁给他吗?”


吃惊的天阔把笔记本抢了过来,脸红的他拼命向父母解释秧秧还不是他的女朋友。。。


“我愿意。”


惊讶的一家人把目光转向秧秧。


“我愿意。”


原来秧秧会说话,也听得见。一直以来,彼此都用手语沟通,从来没想过对方也可能说话。。。是一场美丽的误会。。。






愛情和夢想都是很奇妙的事情
不用聽,不用說,不用翻議
就能感受到它

20 January 2010

I GOTTA FEELING

every time i am feeling restless, i play this song and let it replay it in my head, you won't believe but it works, it makes me climb out of my bed and out of my shell =)

衝動



我對你有愛的衝動。。。
但你的無動於衷。。。
會讓我的愛。。。
不見了

18 January 2010

Do I Know What I want?

I know what I want...
I think I know what I want...
I have an idea what I want...
Is that what I want...
I think maybe... that is what I want...
I have no idea what I want...

This is what I have become, in the midst of trying to change a job, trying to change how I live my life, trying to fit different things and people into my life. I have lost my direction! My compass seems to swing wildly in all directions, moving hesitatingly towards any new direction. I wonder at the reasons that have brought me to the the state of mind today. Nothing has changed for me, maybe the no change has brought about this confusion.

I know I am searching for something, but exactly what is that, I can't put it in words. I know what some people might say, they would tell me right in the face that I am searching for the right man, someone to start my life with or get married to. But these people would be wrong... I am searching for something else, something that can calm my heart of the confusion, something that make my life worth living or in greater words: the reason of my existence. I am not saying that finding someone to share my life with is not part of the search, it plays a part, a role in this project of mine but it does not conquer or overtake the rest. What is the rest one may ask, I am searching for the answer too and I am anxious to find it.

What I need now at this moment is an unplanned getaway, straight to the airport with no plans, pick a destination and off I go! Do I have the guts to do that? I will find out... =)

11 January 2010

Pancetta Spaghetti

A rare day at home, the only day in the week that I am back here. I have just returned from Brisbane and heading to Melbourne tomorrow. I look forward to my trip in Melbourne as I enjoy visiting Mart 130 for brunch! A cosy cafe built into a tram station, and it will be glorious to visit the cafe in the summer of Australia. This wonderful place was recommended by Ming and I miss those days that we visited the cafe, salivating over the delicious food, getting lost sometimes... etc.

Oh, pardon me for letting my thoughts wonder once again. I was craving for something simple, something easy to whipped up in minutes. What was better than a plate of home-cooked spaghetti, just the way I like it. I decided that there was going to be no sauce, just olive oil. Something like aglio e olio, but a tad heavier in taste... I need... bacon!

Bacon sliced into small pieces, garlic and parsley chopped and tomato deseeded and cut into small cubes. Heat the pan with olive oil, fry the bacon till crisp, set the bacon aside, add the garlic, then the cooked spaghetti, tomato, parsley, a pinch chilli flakes, salt and pepper. Toss and turn, in goes half of the bacon and it is done. Plate and sprinkle the rest of the bacon on the top.



Well Said! Elizabeth Taylor!

THE PROBLEM 
with people who 
have no vices 
is that generally 
YOU CAN BE 
PRETTY SURE
they're going
to have some
PRETTY 
ANNOYING 
VIRTUES

Elizabeth Taylor, 77, actress

04 January 2010

9 days in Los Angeles

It may be a late update of my trip to Los Angeles over the Christmas, but it is better to be late than never, right? I was in Los Angeles, Torrance, for almost six full days, and life without a car in Torrance can be quite boring since the public transport is.. err.. let's put it simply as messy and unsafe to travel on. My initial plan was to travel to Las Vegas by plane and it didn't matter to me if I had a companion. But as we know, initial plans always changes, this colleague of mine was keen in going to Las Vegas so we planned to rent a car, drive down to Grand Canyon and Las Vegas. Unfortunately, she fell sick on the day itself and there goes our trip. Instead of staying coop up in the room or hitting the malls every day, I was determined to spend at least a couple of days sightseeing. After searching on the internet, I decided on an area known as Palos Verdes, mainly consisting of coastal cities. The coast of Palos Verdes Peninsular is known for being photographed for the films of Pirates of the Caribbean.

My journey to the coast was not a smooth-sailing one, I was supposed to be alighted at Palos Verdes Lighthouse but it seems that the cab driver drove me to somewhere else which I have no idea where since I made the mistake of not bringing any map with me. So in short, I was lost. With no map and no guide, I had to resort to asking the people around the place. Okay, this guy sitting at Starbucks seems nice, and lucky me, he was. I told him where I was heading and he told me that there was no way I could walk to my destination, I sighed at the thought of taking a cab again and to add on to that, I have not seen any cabs passing by since I arrived. As I pondered on what I should do next, the guy told me that he would give me a lift to where I wanted to go. I was surprised and of course happy but wary of his intentions as well, he seems to have read my thoughts and told me that I could hold on to his driving pass, I laughed and accepted his goodwill. Hopped onto his car and we chatted as he drove me to my destination, he thought I was a Japanese... me... a Japanese? I see no resemblance of any Japanese features in me. Anyway, he was telling me that his car was in the garage... blah blah... I think he was trying to pick me up but in a subtle way, I was glad that my destination was in sight, and before dropping me off, he gave me his number telling me to call him when I decided to head back so he could give me a lift back to the hotel. Hmmm... dubious.

I was welcomed to the beach by a vast green field, and no words can describe how much I love being in such a big patch of green land. That is why I love going to parks, parks with clean green grass that I can roll around, fall asleep, have a picnic or read a book on, Hyde park in London is one of the park I miss the most! I can't wait to return in summer, back to the park where everyone else would be relaxing and chatting on the same patch of green. Palos Verdes beach has trails which you can hike, trails that lead to the top where you can oversee the beautiful scenery of the whole area or to the tide pool known as Abalone Cove where you can see beautiful starfishes and other marine lives.





 

 

 

The view at the top was amazing but a little chilly since it was very windy. With the wind in your face, it is as if the wind was trying to whisper some secrets to you, secrets of sea... After the hike, I visited the Wayfarers Chapel, its beauty was beyond words. I can see why many couples chose to hold their wedding here. The chapel was mainly made of glass with its structure supported by wooden beams, its beauty is greatly magnified as the rays of sunlight shine through the chapel, but when dusk comes, it welcomes the the colors of sunset with romance. Having a wedding there would seem impossible for me but if one day, I am able to renew my vows in the chapel, I would be satisfied.









 





Loving people who loves you back, laughing with people who make you smile, holding hands with people who carry you through thick and thin... for me, that is what life is all about.

01 January 2010

Curse of the spots...Mos..Qui...Toes...

I have no idea where they came from but all I know is that they are definitely stalking me! I am the only prey in the whole house that they seemed interested in, nobody else got bitten except for me. Any idea what my predators are? Mosquitoes! Ever since young, I have always been the one to get bitten first if there were any mosquitoes buzzing around and I always wonder why. Does it have something to do with my blood type or is my mum simply telling the truth when she said that the mosquitoes target me because my blood is 'sweet'. Come on, what silly logic is that.

From the moment I woke up this morning, I have seen the gradual increase in the number of red spots on my legs, hands and finally all over! Whenever I enter a confine space, I sense a pair of eyes spying on me, targeting the right spot to sink the needle in and waiting for the best opportunity to strike. When I went to my parent's toilet this morning, I came out with two additional bites and a dead mosquito, I won the battle but at a price... Went to other toilet, a mosquito started harassing me and this time, it was on my butt! Mosquito bites are worse than cuts, they are itchy and sometimes, I scratched the spots till they bleed...still scratching... 16 bites since this morning and still counting... Can somebody do something before I look like I am having chicken pox... *sigh*