you can never understand

you kept saying you understood, but you are wrong...

you can never understand what it was like to be shocked, to be confused, to be scared and to be angry at the same moment in time;

you can never understand what it was like to cry all night in the toilet so that you won't wake the person sleeping next to you;

you can never understand the confusion of being left out of something important in your best friend's life;

you can never understand the sudden loss of confidence in friends and people you care for;

you can never understand what it is like to lose yourself and lose control of your emotions;

you can never understand how hard it is to try your hardest at something and fail miserably in the end;

you can never understand the helplessness in realizing that you may have to wear a mask in the future, especially to the people you care for;

you can never understand what it was like to feel guilty when you are not in the wrong;

you can never understand the pain of losing two close friends in a single day;

you can never understand the struggle within in making that decision, the urge to take back what you said, so you can keep them in your life once again;

you can never understand what it was like to cry till you lose your voice;

you can never understand how much it took to go work the next day, to face so many people, to smile even when your heart was bleeding;

you can never understand the pain of saying goodbye when you knew it was a point of no return;

you can never understand the confusion of why the world is still revolving when yours has stopped;

you can never understand what it is like to hate yourself all over again when you wake up in the morning;

you can never understand the pain of hanging up on someone when all you want to do is to listen ;

you can never understand what it was like to keeping asking yourself: why me?;

you can never understand how it was to have your happy world turn upside down in less than a month;

you can never understand because you are not the one who is alone;

you can never understand how much will it took not to let the sadness become hatred;

you can never understand because you are basking in new friends and new love;

you can never understand simply because:

you are not me...